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posted on: 2007-11-11 at 7:37:00 PM
Now that I got that out of my system.. HELLO. LONG TIME NO BLOG. I've been super busy lately -- and I know that in my last post, I was whining about how I wish I posted more often and that I promised to post more.. and here it's been more than a month and a half and nary a post. BAD CARL.
The latest news is in picture form, and can be found in my pictures section. Lots of new Oliver the little lovable-snuggable Biggie-Smalls-iver pictures, as well as photos from the venerable Halloween party thrown by Rose and Ian -- and also my mom's 60th birthday. Please browse, but try not to carouse.
First: Oliver. What a glorious and trying month this has been. Before I go further, I must confess that I know I have it relatively easy. Oliver is one of the most well-tempered, easy-going babies I've ever seen. His demeanor is that of cheerfulness and pensiveness.
When startled, he smiles! When he hears laughter.. he laughs! He loves to share giant open-mouthed smiles with anyone who gives him their attention. His eyebrows are very expressive and he loves to use his eyes to single out people and colorful objects. He is no stranger to ruckus and will dance to loud music (even hardcore Gangsta rap .. WEST SIEEDE REPRESENT'). He has a great family. Grandparents, parents and close friends adore him and give him gobs of attention. He soaks it in and beams with happiness.
I have it pretty easy.
That being said -- he's been crying a lot more lately. He's teething .. he's colicky. He's SOMETHING. GAH. He must be growing so fast that his bones are stressed and bending (at least that's what it sounds like sometimes). Months ago, his cries were pouty and subversive. Lately, his cries are painful, loud and haunting. I try to sooth him by holding him, whispering to him .. and sometimes it works -- but usually he's going through some phase that simply takes time. Every action on my part seems to only stifle the moment.
Albeit he is healthy and happy. It is but just the few fleeting moments when he is screaming and snotting and crying where I become wary. But hey -- I took the class at the hospital when he was born. "HAVE A PLAN" they say. I can honestly see why some parents end up shaking their babies .. because babies are human yet they have no ability to express WHY they are upset. It's not something we adults are used to. It can be maddening.
I can relate to the fantasy of understanding baby-ease. "MUUAAHHHH MA MA WAAHHHH SCREEEEAAAMMM" could mean "hey, daddy -- my freakin' right tooth is kicking my gum's ass and I'd sure like a shot of Whiskey."
"Hey cool" *administers teething gel*
But no. It's not like that. "RAAWWWRRRR!!!" means (in a very generic way) "I AM IN PAIN." And all I can do is hold him close to me, stroke his hair, kiss him and love him immensely (well -- I can drop him in the car seat, set him on the floor and turn on some dumb movie on TV .. but the former makes me a better dad, right?).
I thought the hard part was when they were firstborn. t(^.^t)
I GOT AN XBOX360!!! What was wrong with me? I ran a video game store for 4 years!! I played the love-hate game. I LOVE NINTENDO (see tattoo). I HATE MICROSOFT (see this). Blah blah blah. The Halo 3 craze caught up to me (and ultimately, my wife) -- and now we are the proud parents of a Halo 3 special edition XBox360. We both play it all the time. Beautiful Katamari, Tiger, Halo 3... All those awesome little $3 arcade games. Wow. Microsoft can't get it right with their computing platforms .. but they sure as hell can nail it with home video game consoles. 1080p interactive gaming is TEH SHIT. I am now a lifer. Ugh.There are so many good games out now, too. Orange Box, Call of Duty 4, Super Mario Galaxy, Guitar Hero III... I need a raise!
I've been working on my latest CD (the ninth non-linear mix). Kalina has been quite an inspiration -- she has pressed upon me to to work on another mixset. I have obliged.
I really admire her tenacity. She is an artistic and vibrant person whom I look up to -- and this latest project of mine has rekindled the part of me which loves to create art. I'm scared though -- I have laid down about ten minutes of audio and it's really harsh. It's technically accurate, but it is very glitchcore. I have tweaked it down to the millisecond and it is still all over the map.
My goal is finish this before Christmas and have enough time left over to remix it for 5.1 audio systems... Watch out subs. MUWAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
So .. work. Yay work. I've been working in Tigard for the past two months and it's been pretty freaking lame. I don't like driving long distances repetitively. I guess I am a leftist liberal who believes in global warming and socialism. I drive 38 miles a day and get angry knowing that my car isn't more fuel efficient. No matter -- I'm back "home" now at Jantzen Beach. I'm working at the store I shopped at for ten years. I am now an official manager. My picture is on the wall. WEEE!!!
I will post more soon. REALLY THIS TIME. ^__^
posted by Carl
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